SPIRITUAL DIARY FOR 01-12-2008
My Worship Time Focus: A Time of Tension: Fear and Perplexity
Bible Reading & Meditation Reference: Genesis 42:25-35
Message of the verses: “25 Then Joseph gave orders to fill their bags with grain and to restore every man’s money in his sack, and to give them provisions for the journey. And thus it was done for them. 26 So they loaded their donkeys with their grain and departed from there. 27 As one of them opened his sack to give his donkey fodder at the lodging place, he saw his money; and behold, it was in the mouth of his sack. 28 Then he said to his brothers, "My money has been returned, and behold, it is even in my sack." And their hearts sank, and they turned trembling to one another, saying, "What is this that God has done to us?"
29 “When they came to their father
Jacob in the land of Canaan, they told him all that had happened to them,
saying, 30 “The man, the lord of the land, spoke harshly with us, and took us
for spies of the country. 31 “But we
said to him, ‘We are honest men; we are not spies. 32 ‘We are twelve brothers, sons of our
father; one is no longer alive, and the youngest is with our father today in
the
I seen in this section that Joseph gave orders to put the money that the brothers brought to buy gain back into the grain sacks before they had left for home. Next one of the brothers opens his sack of grain to feed the donkeys and finds the money. Now this is where the story gets quit confusion, for why did not the rest of the brothers open their sacks to see if their money was there? According to Genesis 43:21 all the men opened their sacks at this time, “and it came about when we came to the lodging place, that we opened our sacks, and behold, each man’s money was in the mouth of his sack, our money in full. So we have brought it back in our hand.” The puzzling part of this is that all of them acted surprised about this when they opened their sacks in front of Jacob. I am not sure what the answer is to this or if it is so important to even know, but this is surely a mystery. 10/17/2020 10:11 AM Perhaps the brothers all feed their donkeys out of the same sack of grain and that is not why the others opened their sacks. However one would think that the other brothers would have wondered if the money was in their sacks also. The only answer that I can come up with is that God did not cause the others to open their sacks, and if they all had done this perhaps they would have all returned to Egypt.
Spiritual meaning for my life today: In Dr. Wiersbe’s book he wrote that this would have been a good time for this family to ask the Lord to search their hearts to find out the sin that was still their, but they did not, however God did work out his plan in spite of this not happening,
As I go through this time of fasting I find that it is not as special as the first time I did this in 1999, and one of the reasons is that at that time my primary goal was for spiritual reasons as I wanted the Lord to give direction to my life after my recent retirement. This fast seems to be a fast to loose the unwanted pounds as a first priority and the spiritual reasons as a second, which is NOT RIGHT. I truly believe that the Lord wants me to be healed from the difficulties that I am going through, and the things that is foremost on my mind as far as God speaking to me concerning this fast is my commitment to being a follower of Jesus Christ, for this should be first and foremost on my mind. I am also trying to find out some information on confession as I think that my confessions have been shallow and do not seem to be done in a right manor. I have asked the Lord to search my heart, but thus far I still feel that this fast has not done me any spiritual good at this point. I have confessed to the Lord that my priorities for this fast have not been correct, and pray that they will get turned around. I need help.
My Steps of Faith for today: Trust the Lord to give me the answers that I seek and resolve this problem.
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